Bored, Bored, Bored

For the first time in almost 12 years, I'm bored. Being bored is something I've dreamed of, yes, even aspired to, since Ethan and Dylan were born. Ah, to have the entire expanse of a day in front of me with little to do but recuperate.

No colicky boys with apnea monitors, getting only 2-3 hours of sleep a day. Neither one napping at the same time (if they napped at all), Oh no, now the cat's puking, too! Laundry running night and day. Suspecting developmental delays, research, therapy, worry. Sweet baby faces smiling at Teletubbie balloons, So interested in reading and stories, music and singing.  Don't want your face washed? Making up a "wash-cloth dance".

Crawling in separate directions. Running...fast. Baby gates...worthless. Ethan your chewing everything! Swinging and swinging, two pushes for you ...two pushes for you. Trying to keep snow clothes on one, before the other takes his off.  We'll never get out of the house!

Pre-school - no, they can't be in school, already, we're just getting started!  IEP's, advocacy, seminars, meeting other moms. They're in the same classroom, we'll have to color code; does this come in blue and red? Their first school program! Gymnastics-that poor aide with never catch Dylan.

The sitters' called three times and the Christmas party hasn't even started. Broken arm, cracked jaw, pneumonia, drug reaction. Ethan has night terrors. Dylan, how did you get your head stuck in the door? 

Ethan said, "mommy"!! First imaginative play? Discreet Trial therapy a with stuffed bear. Hats! Puzzles! Numbers, Alphabet! Mom, I'm in Chicago with Tod, he just got out of heart surgery; what? did I just hear you say "put the knife down, Ethan"?

California? No family, no friends? Everything's new. New school, new system. How to navigate? Tod's out of town. Thank God for Gerrie! Two bathrooms, yeah! Ethan, don't stick your head in the toilet. Big yard, big gate. When did they learn how to ring the doorbell and run?

Visitors from home! Boys are so big, using computers, reading, writing, fighting over toys, Magic shows, bus trips around the world. Drawing, singing, dancing, melting down, growing up. "Paper, please", "more milk, please". "Lay down with mom?"

Now, I can't imagine what I thought was so great about being bored, Can you?